Full Chapter List: I Sacrifice The Years With My Deep Love

Chapter 1: I don’t want this child Chapter 2: Thoughts of mourning Chapter 3: Shen Nian, I hate you Chapter 4: People like me should stay in hell Chapter 5: Mental problem Chapter 6: Something happened to the patient in bed 23 Chapter 7: I stand in the abyss, no one can save me Chapter 8: I am willing to protect you Chapter 9: Memories are punishment, punishing those who miss the past Chapter 10: She has passed away Chapter 11: Their feelings will not be seen in the light after all Chapter 12: Just like her life, it is dark Chapter 13: Shen Nian at the age of 23 Chapter 15: I just... want to see her again Chapter 16: Knowing that it is impossible Chapter 17: The future Mrs. Lu Chapter 18: Between us, I am the only one who can tell the possibility of ending Chapter 19: Shen Nian and Lu Lingrui will always be together Chapter 20: Thoughts, unforgettable thoughts Chapter 21: Let’s not meet again in the next life Chapter 22: Sometimes, missing is also a kind of missed chance Chapter 23: The regret of going to Yuan Lu Lingrui Chapter 24: I have hesitated, turned around and faced my glimmer of hope, but still no one cared about it Chapter 25: Just one look almost defeated her Chapter 26: The only starlight in her dark world Chapter 27: Lu Lingchuan only does it for one person—— Chapter 28: Every day she lives now, she is commemorating Lu Lingrui Chapter 29: Become your truest self with the help of wine--Hold her into your arms Chapter 30: Dawn Chapter 32: Losing is more terrifying than not gaining, because there is a process in the middle Chapter 33: What kind of face is there to live in this world Chapter 34: For Lingrui Chapter 35: Desperate to covet this short-lived warmth Chapter 36: The shallow arc at the corner of the lips Chapter 37: Desperate to cut myself Chapter 38: Paroxetine Chapter 39: Lu Lingchuan just looked at it, lost his mind... Chapter 41: People change... don't they? Chapter 42: Then, stay up all night Chapter 43: Time and time again, back and forth, repeated reincarnations, torturing her spirit Chapter 44: Living in a world of self-blame all her life, no one can save her Chapter 45: She is indeed the woman he likes, she can easily arouse his anger! Chapter 46: The complicated relationship is doomed that she and Miss Liang cannot live in peace Chapter 47: A man’s heart is like a needle in the sea... Chapter 48: The real her is actually very unbearable... Chapter 49: Is it you? ! Chapter 50: Is this Assistant Shen’s boyfriend? Chapter 51: The hand on Shen Nian's waist looks so annoying... Chapter 52: The bloodthirsty scarlet in his eyes can't fade for a long time Chapter 53: Even though he knows that moths fly to the flame, he still rushes forward without hesitation Chapter 54: Your people and life belong to me, Lu Lingchuan Chapter 55: Since we can't end well... Let's go to hell together! Chapter 56: The aura of a king that makes people surrender Chapter 57: I want to hold Lu Lingrui in front of me in my arms Chapter 58: An unknown light flashed in her eyes Chapter 59: Every word she said pointed to the truth, as if she had seen it with her own eyes Chapter 60: Short-term redemption cannot save me in the darkness Chapter 61: It seems...I knew it two years ago Chapter 62: Maybe... she is a lone star of the devil Chapter 63: I will never be able to repay what I owe you in this life Chapter 64: They were not the only ones who were ruined back then... Chapter 85: What happened back then has another twist Chapter 66: I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Chapter 67: Like a crazy little beast Chapter 68: Lucky people will be luckier, and unfortunate people will be even more unfortunate Chapter 36: It started with what is your name, and then everything happened Chapter 70: The hands were shaking more and more Chapter 60: Sunflowers, messengers of sunshine, born towards the sun Chapter 72: The thoughts that are never forgotten are also the thoughts that are missed Chapter 73: Some people are just for missing Chapter 74: Do you have a map? Because I just lost it in your eyes Chapter 75: Sunflower is the epitome of Lu Lingrui Chapter 76: These words are salvation, lighting up the dim Lu family Chapter 77: In this era of rampant ambiguity, affection and devotion are like jokes Chapter 78: Will use her life... to make them pay the price Chapter 79: Skillfully touched a few pills Chapter 80: Man, your name is Naodong Chapter 81: I seem to be giving up on you, and I seem to be waiting for you Chapter 82: "Death under the peonies, you can be romantic even if you are a ghost" Chapter 83: If there were not so many things, her little dumpling would be four years old Chapter 84: She is not looking at the sea, just looking at her dilapidated regrets Chapter 85: After all, it is just a dream, just wishful thinking Chapter 87: Stupidity revealed in his clear eyes Chapter 88: Lu Lingchuan has shown his weakness Chapter 89: Her emergency contact... Chapter 2: is still being written~~] Chapter 91: Shura who came like hell Chapter 92: He will never be so out of control and lose all reason Chapter 93: Walk the road to the end with Lu Lingchuan Chapter 94: She should be a four-year-old baby now Chapter 95: Deep in the bone marrow and unforgettable Chapter 96: Silence is a silent rejection and the coldest rejection Chapter 97: Meeting other victims Chapter 98: Deep fear and uneasiness Chapter 99: The real reason why Chen Bei’s family left the capital that year Chapter 100: Seeing Shen Nian’s face, the originally wandering and restless heart suddenly calmed down Chapter 101: So... it’s not a dream? Chapter 102: You can only rely on drugs to stabilize your mood Chapter 103: The bitterness in your mouth can temporarily forget the bitterness in your heart Chapter 104: For Shen Nian, it is the torment of falling into hell Chapter 105: She does not want to... push Lu Lingchuan to other women herself Chapter 106: You can start over... right? Chapter 107: The seemingly endless night sky with no light at all Chapter 108: Are you satisfied with this? Chapter 109: There was no quarrel, no fuss, just sitting there, crying silently Chapter 110: In the end, she still made herself so miserable and haggard Chapter 111: It is a pity to give up, but there is no point in insisting on some things Chapter 112: You may not live here, but the lights at home will always be on for you Chapter 113: At least it is not wishful thinking without repercussions Chapter 114: Lu Lingchuan has come Chapter 115: There is a bit of sadness in his eyes Chapter 117: I am in love, not in love Chapter 118: I didn’t dare to want her before, but now she doesn’t want me Chapter 119: I like you, always have Chapter 120: Use the year they fell in love most as capital to make a gambling agreement with Shen Nian Chapter 121: It’s like going back to six years ago Chapter 122: 100 little things that lovers must do Chapter 123: These are the things she dreamed of getting but can’t get in this life Chapter 124: Meeting and falling in love is not worth this life Chapter 125: Clear everything and start again Chapter 126: One of the lights in every house is lit for me Chapter 127: I liked it before, but I don't like it now Chapter 128: Roaring at the top of my lungs Chapter 129: It was just her fantasy, just her fantasy... Chapter 130: And some people... need to spend the rest of their lives atonement Chapter 131: Shen Nian... never planned to tell Lu Lingchuan Chapter 132: In fact... nothing? Chapter 133: Playing the loop over and over again, torturing her spirit Chapter 134: I may have never been sober Chapter 135: No, I love you Chapter 136: And he is no longer qualified to step into her life Chapter 137: Shen Nian is becoming more and more like Lu Lingchuan Chapter 138: The wall that was finally built collapsed in a second Chapter 139: The light between him and Shen Nian went out Chapter 140: I'm getting married Chapter 141: Let's talk, like we just met Chapter 142: Finally chose to let go Chapter 143: How about it? Isn’t it beautiful? Chapter 145: This means that she has appeared before Chapter 146: Two surnames are married and a contract is made together Chapter 147: She didn't come... Chapter 148: It turns out that she is so ill Chapter 149: Shen Nian's face is focused and then frozen Chapter 150: She smiles so cleanly and so gently Chapter 151: I don't like sunflowers anymore Chapter 152: The sun will eventually set, and the moon is destined to set in the west Chapter 153: Extra 1: Xiao Mubai (1) Chapter 154: Extra 1: Xiao Mubai (2) Chapter 155: Extra 2: Lu Qingchen (1) Chapter 156: Extra 2: Lu Qingchen (2)/Finale